LIKE COME ON.
if you hate me then just say so.
why go to such extend to screw my life up?

but like LEXINE says.
i shouldn't let it affect me at all.
and its during times like this that i know who friends really are.
so i should keep my chin up!
and hope that no one is going to judge me for this.
but then again.
what she said was right.
so i'll just keep my head up.

i almost didn't want to go to school today.
but i have a test.
and just didn't feel like school.


and i don't want to taste like AMAZING'S cookies.
cause i bet they taste horrible.
and i taste really good okay!
and i have no time to do pudding for you la!
but i think i must wait for another two years to make you some.
cause if you eat them now.
everything will be stuck on your ugly braces!
then everyone would think that you have rotten teeth!
and i swear i lead by example.
i am SO NOT LAZY!
and i'm seriously serious about it yo.


and for those who are thinking why there's like a yo.
well.
i don't know.
a habit i picked up from my friend i guess.
so i should kick myself off the habit.

i wanna buy a new back pack!
so that when i have to go to school and work.
i can put my laptop and my uniform in that bag.
so i don't need to carry so many things.
and no.
an airwalk bag is not an option.


and i just want to let something out.


who the fucking hell do you think you are?
you think people like getting fucked up by you?
just cause you're a so call senior staff.
and you earn fifty cents more.
and you spoil everyone's day by pissing them off.
i try to be nice to you.
i tried to say bye.
but you just pretend that i'm not there.
so be it.
i just hope that i don't always have to work with you.
stop saying how great you are.
that you can't always be here to train them.
well.
when you were never around.
who was the one training them?
and it all became my responsibility.
and you just took the credit.
i know i'm not perfect.
i know i'm not up to standard yet.
but still.
you're not either.
you've worked for so long.
i don't see you going anywhere.
i'm going to work hard.
and be better than you.
i'll achieve my aim of being part time manager.
and when i do.
i'll be so damn nice to you to make you regret that you were ever horrible to me.



i never wanted to drift.
away.
but the truth is.
there were times where i felt that there was nothing to hold on to.
nothing to fight for.
but i'm not going to give up.
cause i've lost too many things in this lifetime.
and i dont want to regret anything when i die.
if i die young.